That’s pretty much where I’m at.
I have had quite the week. And it’s not over. A week ago today, my best friend took his life. His wife called to tell me that night. I’m still amazed at her strength. I wish I could be there more for her. She’s on the other side of the country. Of course we have no idea why. I knew things were pretty intense, but I had no idea they were that intense. The irony? He helped pull me out of my depression and lay the foundation for the path on which I travel today. I am trying so hard to stay positive. His mom called me this morning to thank me for the note that I sent out and to see how I was doing. I said I’m trying really hard to pick myself up. I told her that it would be a disservice to him if I let this drag me down and my life came to a halt. I would be undoing all of his hard work. She said that she never looked at it that way, but that was a good perspective to have. I still see signs of him all over. I swear he’s not too far away. You can bet that I will be taking him with me to school next week.
My bestie stayed with me all weekend. I really don’t know what I would do without her. She was lucky enough to have met my friend too. One of my fondest memories includes the both of them. She has been there for me through thick and thin too. This is one time that I’ve needed her the most and she’s been right there. Thank God for her.
To add to everything, I have to go to family court tomorrow. I try hard not to talk about it. I just pray that everything goes in my son’s favor.
And then there’s been the school preparation. I pretty much have everything ready to go. What a lot of work! I’ve said this before… If I wasn’t so passionate about what I want to do, it would have just been easier to sit on my butt and do nothing. But since I don’t roll like that and I actually want to move forward, I will do what I can to make sure that is going to happen.
I am a firm believer in everything happens for a reason. I don’t know the reason why my friend made the decision to leave, but he had his reasons. Just like I believe school is happening now for a lot of reasons. One being that it will be a coping tool for such a big loss. It won’t make the pain go away, but it will certainly be a great distraction. I won’t allow this to take away from my experience… I could see my friend coming back to kick my ass if I did!
I went out today to get some more felting supplies. I picked up a couple of books over the weekend. One of them actually had me laughing out loud! So that got the felt bug going again. I think I’m going to give into it right now. I have some sweaters that I need to do, but I just don’t have the drive to knit right now. I’m sure it’ll be back by the weekend. It has to be. There’s one that I want to have finished before I start school for sure.
As for school shopping, that’s done. And I’m sure you’re assuming everything is purple… Yep! Including my computer. It’s called Sweet Purple. Yep, cuz it’s sweeeeet and it’s purple 😀 I also got a rolling tote to put my sewing machine in. Bet you can’t guess the colour of it! I love it. Twenty years later and everything is still the same colour!
I’m so thankful tomorrow is the last day of August. I’m so glad to get this month done. I don’t know about anyone else, but I just feel that tomorrow is going to be a day of closure. September starts a new chapter in my life. The reading this summer has been pretty crappy. But the adventure portion is about to begin!