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Spinning: Two years later

Wow is all I can say. I just read back on my post about the first time I had spun. I had said that I was going to release the negativity of that day. I didn’t stick to it though because I had actually shared what had happened to upset me that day. I am now going to delete it in a promise that I had made to myself about releasing it. Unfortunately, I’ll probably always have the memories of what happened that day before I started spinning. But if I don’t write them down, perhaps I will forget in time. I hope.

It’s my second spinaversary today! Here are the links to my post about my first experience and my first spinaversary:
A Brand New Chapter
Happy Spinaversary, One Year Later

Oh, my morning started off just absolutely dreadful two years ago today. And I’m going to leave it at that.

Thank God for Wendy.

I was a wreck when I came into that classroom. I had missed the portion about the spindle and with the way the course was set up, there was really no time to go back. So she came over to me and gently said “Let’s go try the wheel.” I walked over and she showed me what I was doing. Then I sat down.

Magic happened.

I really don’t know how to describe it, but I will try. It’s as if everyone and everything around me melted. I was pulled into another dimension where it was me, the wheel and the wool. Nothing else mattered. I was able to shut EVERYTHING off, including the horribleness of what I had just experienced not even an hour prior. I just started spinning. It felt like this was the piece to my life that I had been missing, yet I didn’t know it was missing until I experienced it. I picked up on it like I had done it before. I swear, I had to have been a spinner in a former life!

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I loved spinning so much that my boyfriend bought me my own wheel:

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Since then, I have been going to a spinning group every month. I have taken the Intermediate Spinning Course at Fleming College. I have volunteered my time to do spinning demonstrations. My future is bright too. I will be joining the spinning guild. I will be enrolling in the OHS (Ontario Handweavers and Spinners) Master Spinning Program next August. I will be spinning at Finnegan Lake Gallery next weekend. On the 28th, I will be spinning at Canada Culture Days in Kinmount. I will also be on the Kinmount and Area Studio tour on Thanksgiving weekend.

I have also set the intention to teach. I want to do everything I can to help preserve the art and pass it on to the next generation. Nothing makes me happier when a child sees me spinning and asks me questions about it.

And to close out this post, I think I’m going to do a spinning version of Jeff Foxworhty’s “You might be a redneck”…

If you’re at a fair or a farm and look at sheep, alpacas and other animals and see your next project… you might be a spinner

If you tear your kitchen apart to find sandwich bags to pack your child’s lunch, but you end up finding them in your spinning tote because you were using them for fibre samples… you might be a spinner

If the food colouring you have stored in your kitchen is NOT used for food… you might be a spinner

If you have two sets of pots, two crockpots and two separate heating sources… you might be a spinner

If you’re doing a demonstration when somebody asks if you’re spinning in bare feet because that’s how the pioneers did it and your response is “No, it so that I can “feel” my wheel”… you might be a spinner

If you have more fibre in your closet than you do clothes… you might be a spinner

If you plant your garden based what colours the plants will produce on wool… you might be a spinner

That’s all I have for now. I know there are some spinners that do run across my blog, so feel free to add on in the comments if I missed anything 😉

So here I am, two years later. I couldn’t be more grateful that spinning has come into my life and the timing of it. It sure has got me through some rough times. I’m so thankful that it has the ability to shut everything else off (this is why I don’t spin when my son is around). It really is the gift that keeps on giving.

Colour Me Happy

Yesterday I received confirmation of something I’ve been suspecting for a long time. We’re going to time warp here a bit first…

When I was a teenager, I used to figure skate. That was actually the reason I learned to knit. I wanted one of those beautiful fair isle sweaters in the worst way. Skating is a VERY expensive sport, so there really wasn’t a whole lot of money left over to purchase such things. So I made my own. That’s not really where I’m going with this, but it is important too.

I have ALWAYS loved bright, vibrant colours. When I was on the ice, I think I had some of the loudest tights and skate covers out there. I had one pair that was black with fluorescent pink, green, purple and white. Another pair was bright pink with black. Sometimes I wore novelty boxer shorts over top of them (which I know drove one of the coaches crazy LOL). Many times I wore baseball caps. I sure did express myself!

If you’ve been looking at some of the pictures on my blog recently, you may have noticed that the colours are getting brighter as time goes on. Yesterday I was talking with somebody that came into my life as I was starting to rebuild it four years ago after I left that abusive relationship. She commented that when we first connected, I was using mostly solid, muted colours. She has noticed that as time has gone on, as things are falling into place in my life, the colours I’ve been using have been bright, vibrant and happy. When she pointed this out, I had a very hard time not welling up. Reflecting back, she was so very right. What does this mean?

Kyla is BACK.

There was a period of time before my son was born that I was living in darkness. When he came into my life, the light slowly started shining once again. After we left the bad place, it got a little brighter. As I’ve been rebuilding and exploring new paths, it’s been shining even more brilliantly. After hearing somebody else observe this in me, it just makes me so happy. You see, not so long ago I would often beat myself up because I feel that I let that little skater down. Aside from my son who is my world, one of the reasons I’ve been working so hard is to make it up to her. I know now that she would be very pleased. She would love the colours that I’m working with now. She would have worked with them too!

This bag is the latest pattern test I’ve worked on. It is the XL Tote Bag by SoulCandy Crochet. I really like her writing style. I started this bag with the intention of selling it. Now I’m not so sure!

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You can purchase the pattern here. You can save 20% if you purchase by noon CST 5/8/2013.

Catching up – Textile Embellishment Parts 1 and 2

Well then… I thought I’d be able to catch up last week. Think again! Laura warned me that this week is going to be even crazier. It seems like since we got back from reading week, the workload has really increased. But hey, I was actually expecting it to be this intense a lot earlier in the program. So… bonus!

I didn’t do so hot on some of the pieces last week. I really did get left behind when it came to the design element. Truthfully, it could have been broken down a bit more for those who really have no previous artistic experience. Like what the hell is a focal point in art terms? Where does it go? That textbook that we’ve cracked twice would have REALLY helped if we were directed towards the right place to go. Laura finally did that. I kept telling her that I am struggling with the “art” part of things. So she remedied that 🙂 She showed me what to read in order to wrap my head around stuff. Then she challenged me to apply it to my projects. It was awesome! I really appreciate her taking the time. She is the kind of instructor that, if you ask her a question and show interest in the topic, she will do whatever she can to help that light click on.

So here is the yardage that I was speaking about a couple of weeks ago. This is designed to create awareness about emotional abuse:


The colorway (in other words, same print, different colours)


First free motion project


Second free motion project


More free motion fun… These are both coloured in with thread. Colouring with thread is way more fun than crayons! 😉


Little pieces of fabric cut up and placed on water soluble stabilizer. I added another layer of stabilizer, did some free motion sewing, washed the stabilizer away and got this…


Some “findings” under some tool with free motion sewing on top. This was a blast to do!

This week we are working on a 2D and 3D project. I am making a vest for mine. I won’t go into detail as of yet. I’m hoping the recipient will skip the next few entries about my project. I don’t think she reads my blog anyway. It’ll be my luck that she’ll start now! lol

I got one sock down. Five more to go! Hopefully the woman that ordered them still wants them… If not, Normy was eyeing them up lol

I will do my best to keep posting. It sure hasn’t been easy. I got thinking more and more about my blog and how to back it up. I think I’m ultimately going to make a scrapbook. I think that’s the easiest way 🙂

Emotional Abuse – How I’m Lashing Back

I think I mentioned that this week we’re doing embellishments. Part of the course is “printing a yardage.” In other words, we have to make a screen and print about a yard and a half of patterned fabric.

There was an event last week involving somebody that mentally, emotionally and financially abused me and is allowed to continue to do so since those forms of abuse aren’t considered a criminal act. I do my best to ignore it, but sometimes it’s hard. So instead of lashing back at this insecure loser directly, I’m using my energy to try create awareness about emotional abuse. Hopefully one day this will be recognized in the courts and something be done about it. That is what my yardage is going to be.

Here is what I have in the works:


The first draft of my screen design


The other ribbon. The black one will be solid purple. The other one will be purple where the black is


The layout for my screen

This project is due on Friday. I just have to shoot my screen tomorrow and I’m ready to roll. Hopefully I can get it done tomorrow. If not, then I have all day Friday. I don’t think it will take that long at all 🙂